I Am Not Alone

I haven't told anyone other than my mother or my husband about my plans. I did, however, make a comment to a friend about having to spend money or it wouldn't be available. I forget my exact phrasing. I thought I was justifying our Target spree (stocked up on toilet paper, hand soap, diapers, and other necessities).

My friend didn't say anything.

But the other night her husband casually mentioned something about his prior bankruptcies. They didn't pick up the topic, it was just casually dropped.

I was really surprised.

Then my husband told me that he didn't mind if that couple know. It probably wouldn't get back to his boss and if it got back to someone like his best friend, who cares? His best buddy had filed bankruptcy once upon a time.

He did?

I've known him for years and he's never mentioned it.

My mom, several friends, and who else? I wonder how many people I know have gone through a bankruptcy?

To tell?

I'm debating who to tell, or whether to tell anyone.

One of the things I dread is that confessing our financial state will allow a friend or two to feel like they can give their take on it. I don't want to have to explain everything. I don't want to have to be convinced not to do this.

At the same time it's all I've been thinking about recently. I've been making lists in my head, trying out scenarios, and figuring out what to do after all this is said and done. It would be nice to have someone to talk to other than my husband and my mother.